I don’t know what I should do. 

I just enjoy the single life, being able to do what I want, talk to who I want, no limitations to anything. Everything is on my terms. I feel so selfish saying that, might be because that is a selfish thing to do. Break up with someone just because you want your freedom back. 

My dad always said being single was in our blood, a womanizer per se. I wouldn’t go as far as saying that, but like my father, I enjoy living life at my own will.  

In saying all of this to myself, I am still in a crossroads. Do I give everything I have into this relationship that can be salvaged, or do I cut the cord…  I feel evil keeping her in this limbo land, but I don’t know any other way to go about this.  She loves me, I can’t deny that. I also can’t deny that I love her as well. So why would I end something with someone I love? 

WHY AREN’T ANY OF THESE QUESTIONS HELPING ME?! They make me want to ask more questions. Ugh, I don’t know what my next step should be.